> want people to tell me i look skinny
> when they do, i feel angry and wonder why they’re lying to me and whether or not i’ve gained more weight
> proceed to spend the next hour in the bathroom throwing up my most recent meal
the joys of bulimia
just unfollowed most thinspo blogs. I think this is a step in the right direction.
i have the worst fucking flu right now. cannot purge, struggling to exercise. this is so frustrating.
just binged on crackers. i have reached a new fucking low.
bulimia flare ups really suck. it’s even harder when you tell your friends IRL, but can’t bring yourself to do it seriously, so everyone just assumes you’re joking and then there’s no one to talk to about it.
i guess i shouldn’t expect anyone to suspect something. i’m clearly not fucking skinny enough to have an ed.
42 kilos today. BMI 17.0.